Life is a like a box of chocolates, you never know what you’re gonna get. When it rains, it pours.
There is a silver lining behind that dark cloud.
This too shall pass.
Shit happens.
The beginning of 2008 has been very challenging to me. I guess the 12 animals in the zodiac have placed a bet on whether I can still pull it together. You bet I am even if it means having to go through settings similar to “Jigsaw’s Puzzles.” Indeed the circumstances pale in comparison with Hostel and Saw.
I like to play a game with you.You have taken so many things for grantedInside that head of yours is the key to your salvation.
You need to choose.
Let the game begin.
The brutal truth is I was so complacent and too confident that I am callous to struggle. I said to myself “I have been through hell and high water, what more can’t I see through?” Well right now, I am kicking myself for being narcissistic, too trusting and even lazy to be on top of things. These three attitudes when combined are an equation for a disaster. Kaboom!
Eventually it blew up in my face and I am still recovering from third degree burns and the worse part is, there are mini explosions still happening. Funny right up my ass! I wake up feeling like a cliffhanger. Oh the adrenaline of what to do to survive. Where to find the means (friends) who can spare me a change or two? How will is I stay sane to decide on my next move. The heart of the matter is, it is not only my strength as a person that is being challenged. Coinciding with my Herculean ability are my character, judgment, will power and my precious stubbornness to not give up.
Assessing my present predicament, I discovered the following.
- You really cannot trust anyone. Amen to this!
- There are fair weathered friends. I wonder when they will be back from vacation.
- I am deep crap but still I find time and ways to help others in need of my unsolicited advice. Hey I do not want them to be in shoes.
- You can blame anyone you can think of but still 4 of your fingers are pointing at yourself.
- Behind that wide smile is a more devious character. That is why I seldom smile because I am not that conniving much less evil.
- Never ever let your guard down when it comes to staying in the city that you love. In my case, 300 Spartans are not enough to haul me out of New York City.
Inspite of all the headaches, skyrocketing phone bills, nightmares, anxiety and irritability, I still manage to keep my head up after two sets of flying military press using 5 pound dumbbells. I let a tear drop once in a while but I know I need to believe that there is light at the end of the tunnel.
In my sordid case; light at the end of the subway tunnel.
